Is happiness a choice ?
People always talk about how u can choose for happiness, like there is some kinda happiness switch that erases all the bad stuff, so you can go on with your happy life …
And i do think that people can move the bad things asside and just go on with a smile on their faces
BUT is that true happiness?
For me thats being strong and putting on a fake smile …
Sometimes i wonder how many people walk arround with a fake smie in this fake world…
Only bad choices?
And so what should i do now …
i’m stuck in a world that i can manage but that world contains my dream
I don’t know what solution would be best, or if there even i a solution …
Its like whatever choice i’m gonna pick, it will be a bad choice
But how long will i be able to go on like this …
Maybe i just don’t deserve this dream … :(
I’m in a relationship now
and everything between us is good.
i didn’t expect to fall for this person but now that i did
i don’t really feel regret .
But still i feel kinda sad …
i know its weird , but its not that i’m sad about him
i’m sad because i miss my friends and i don’t see them that much anymore
everyone just kinda splits-up.
and i kinda miss how things used to be 1.5 years ago ….
I miss having a bunch off friends , enjoying crazy partys and shit
i feel like i don’t belong anymore ….